Death is such a hard thing to take.
I was about to write an article today regarding the result of Adspeak but I decided, instead of rejoicing I would like to share the burden of a friend.
I really couldn’t say “Kuya, kaya mo yan” because I really do not know how it feels, how is it to have somebody really close to you suddenly died before you can even say “thanks for everything” or “i love you.”
For some of us, we are very lucky to have our parents, brothers, sisters and friends. But most of the time, we find it hard to balance our attention and our time. Sometimes, we end up regretting over things that could have been fixed but it is already too late.
Let us not take things for granted. Say sorry to the people we hurt, say “I love you” for the people we love. Let us cherish every moment of friendship and camaraderie to those who are dear to us. Let us forget pride and drive away our anger and focus more on making our time more productive by spending decent amount of time to every person we love.
Sadly, sometimes, death is a lesson to us. To teach us how to care, how to love, how to value people who we take for granted. Sometimes, death is a way of God to see what we need the most, what we will miss the most and what we should treasure the most.
But, more often that not, only until death comes that we realize what we should have done.
I am guilty of giving more time to study (yeah, I study too honestly), more time to check my facebook updates, more time to go out with friends but less time with my family. I am too focused for my own gains not realizing I may only have today or this hour to be with any of them.
To kuya, maybe I cannot really say the perfect words to console you or maybe I will never find the right words. Only time will help you see that things happen for a greater reason. Break down if you must. Let your tears flow freely. Let others see you weak. Show to them that you are still a human capable of feeling sorrow and sadness. But, be sure to get tired beating yourself. Get a rest and move on. Use your happy memory with him as your strength, as your guide. I am sure your father loved you. Without his words, his love and his guidance, you will not be the person I know today.
We will miss the smile etched in your face and the laughters and jokes everytime you enter our beloved fortress. But we are sure that it will come back as soon as you rebuild again yourself.
Nay, Tay, Ates, Kuyas, Friends. Let me share my love to you today, tomorrow and the rest of the days of my life.